Hope

"because where there is hope, there is despair"

-Blood Monday

Fantasy

I'm looking for unrealness...
I crave for inexistence,
I dream of the impossible,
I'm chasing lies.

I walk blindfolded,
I'm waiting for despair...

Not monsters...

"Wings symbolize freedom for those who have none"

Cissnei - Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core

...

I am so unsure about everything now, is not like it hasn't happened before...
But this time..it feels kinda different...someone is gonna get hurt...and I can't do anything about it...
But I'm not sacrificing my happiness for anyone...that's just not right

Things need to be said, I just need to be "soft"...eventhough at the end..it'll hurt the same...

When will I be ready?

I have been avoiding it for so long...

I want to say sorry beforehand...I'm very sorry...I won't ask forgiveness...but...sorry anyway...

I hope, you understand someday...if not..I'll only ask you...

....to hate me, hate with all your heart and will...please

HATE ME

今は

私の気持ちは。。。とおてもわるい。。。
どうしてでうか
むすかしですけど。。。

Beautiful Mine

by The Butterfly Effect

Void to feel,
Broken the wheel.
I am the reason you feel,
the reason you feel,
the reason you feel no more.
Cage confines,
A beautiful mine.
I, the way that you feel,
the long divides,
the cold divides,
the pain divides....you.

I see you, I see through.

Where will you be if you don't go,
You'll never find.
What will you see if you don't look,
Then never mind.
Never Mind. Never Mind.

Touch the taste,
the empty embrace.
I am the reason you run,
the reason you run,
the reason you run from here.
The lost design for the beautiful mine
I, the way that you feel
the long divides,
the cold divides,
the pain divides....you.

I see you, I see through.

Where will you be if you don't go,
You'll never find.
What will you see if you don't look,
Then never mind.
Never Mind. Never Mind.
How will you stand if you fall down and never try,
looking for someone you'll never be, never find.
never find.
never find.
(again and again and again and again and again and again)

Beautiful Mine.

Otra vez

Te he buscado todos los días,
te encuentro y....¿luego?
No se que hacer, en realidad...
creo que no hay nada que hacer

Estúpidamente te miro,
nuestras miradas se cruzan.

Una fracción de segundo,
solo eso me basta, solo eso...

La sonrisa de perfecta imbécil
resplandece en mi cara tan fácil...

¿porqué?